KJ-52 - #1 Fan Lyrics
Yo This Is What Happened:Yo I Woke Up Late It Was Like 10 In The Mornin'I Was Still Half Asleep And Sleepy Eyed, Still Yawnin'I Checked My Voice Mail To See Who'd Been Callin'I Turned On My ComputerCheck My Email Logged On ItJunk Mail, Junk Mail Dog-gone-itEverybody Just Tryin To Sell Me They ProductBut There Was One Email That Just Caught My OpticIt Said Sucidal, Took The Mouse And Clicked On ItShe Said " Dear Kj You Don't Know Who I Am,You Probably Don't Care Cause Im Just Another Fan.I Doubt You Ever Read This, Now But If Ya CanSometimes I Slash My Wrists And Even Cut My HandsAnd I Feel All Alone Like Nobody UnderstandsAnd I'm Gonna End It Tonight I Got The Whole Thing PlannedPop Pills, Leave A Note On My Night StandSigned Sincerely, Your Number 1 Fan[chorus:]Can Someone Now Please Help MeWill Someone Now Just Please Help MeCan Someone Now Please Help MeWill Someone Now Just Please Help Me[verse 2:]My Heart Is Poundin As I Start To Type BackWhy Do You Feel This Way Do You Mind If I Ask?Whats The Source And The Cause Of The Pain That You HaveHow Did You Get This Way, Is It Something From The PastGod Cares About You, I Hope You Understand ThatPlease Don't End Your Life, I Beg Ya Please Write BackI Finished Typin', I Sent The Email Quite FastI Bowed My Head And Prayed With All The Strength That I HadShe Said "man Kj I Didn't Even Know You Would Write Me.Let Me Explain Why Noone Could Ever Like MeIt All Started When My Father Used To Strike MeRaped And Confused Every Since 1990He's Gone Now But I Can't Put It All Behind MeI Tried To Run Away But My Pain Would Always Find MeIs God Really The One Who Can Help Me (yes He Is)Signed Tonight Your Number 1 Fan[chorus][verse 3:]Dear Number One Fan I Gotta Lot To Tell YouBut With The Email There Is Only So Much I Can Help YouSee I Know A Father Who Could Never Ever Fail YouHe'll Give You A Love When Nobody Ever Cared ToI Know You Might Feel Like Everybody Hates YouAnd You Feel Like You Got Noone You Can Relate ToBut Death Feels Like The Best Place To Escape ToBut Thats A Lie That Satan, He Just Wants To Tell YouI'm Sorry That You Were Abused, Your Father Raped YouBut You Gotta Get Some Help Cause Nobody Can Make YouI Know Its Hard To Face But God Will Give You The Strength ToI Know You Gots A Lot Of Things You Gotta Work ThroughBut With This Help I Know That You Can Break ThroughI Seen It Myself All The Times He Came ThroughTell Me What You Think Of What I Sent YouI'll Be Prayin', Sincerely Kj-52[chorus][verse 4:]Yo, I'd Be Pretending If I Said This Story Had A Happy EndinBut After That Night I Never Heard From Her AgainThat Night I Tossed And Turned Lyin On My Bed EnCryin And Prayin With These Thoughts Runnin Through My Head EnDid She Do It, Take Her Life, Or Wind Up Dead EnOr Did She Not Choose It, Just Listened To What I Said EnMaybe She Never Got The Last One I Was SendinWas It My Fault Was It Something I Shoulda MentionedEvery Mornin I Would Just Check My EmailCheckin For Any Detail, Hopin An Prayin That Shes WellMy Emails Came Back Sayin That They'd FailedNo Such Address For Number1fan@hotmailDays Turned To Weeks And Weeks Turned To Months EnTime Would Pass And I Just Heard NuthinNo Letter No Email No Not Even Just SomethinWhat Happened To My Number 1 Fan I'm Still Wonderin[chorus]
