10000 Maniacs - Jezebel Lyrics
[ merchant ][ cello: larry corbett/violin: bruce dukov/viola: pamela goldsmith/violin: ralph morrison (quartet arranged and conducted by paul buckmaster) ]To think of my task is chilling.To know I was carefully building the mask I was wearing for two years, swearing Id tear it off.Ive sat in the dark explaining to myself that Im straining too hard for feelings I ought to find easily.Called myself jezebel.I dont believe.Before I say that the vows we made weigh like a stone in my heart.Family is family, dont let this tear us apart.You lie there, an innocent baby.I feel like the thief who is raiding your home, entering and breaking and taking in every room.I know your feelings are tender and that inside you the embers still glow.But Im a shadow, Im only a bed of blackened coal.Call myself jezebel for wanting to leave.Im not saying Im replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you.Im just saying weve mistaken one for thousands of words.And for that mistake, Ive caused you such pain that I damn that word.Ive no more ways to hide that Im a desolate and empty, hollow place inside.Im not saying Im replacing love for some other word to describe the sacred tie that bound me to you.Im not saying loves a plaything.No, its a powerful word, inspired by strong desire to bind myself to you.How I wish that we never had tried to be man and his wife, to weave our lives into a blindfold over both our eyes.
