Atmosphere - Multiples Lyrics
The door opened, in walked my brother terrified Teary eyed, I'm wide open only to hear our father died It's not true, I'm hopin' I need some air, I'm choking Get me off this ride, it's like goin Feeling I'm lost, I'm frozen Suspended in mid-traumatized state Why I'm chosen for this fate, I don't know Head shakes back and forth, emotional, unsociable Not speakin, remaining silent cuz I'm weak And deep inside I freakin' want my father back, I need him Why's God cheatin? Taking half of two that gave me life My mind, place, and thought Never longer can I sleep at night And I'm feeling like insecure, and what's my future lookin like? I ain't dealt with death before, age eleven, I can't take no more Hands on the floor cuz my stomach's feelin sick And I was mad at the Lord because he took him all too quick That day, on his way to pick me up he never made it Blamed it all on myself before I dwell to self-hatred On a path for destruct, many thought I wouldn't make it I hated the way I feel but I just can't seem to shake it Somebody take it away, this mad situation My world is breaking and I feel about to cave in I try to take it all in after it all settled I couldn't begin accepting you were gone But understood (X2) Hey, Dad, I miss you For everyday gone and for the rest of my life I try to remain strong until we reunite Live on, your memory from the seeds you planted gently Thanks for being there for me, and all the time you spent with me Love sent from me, If I could only have that day back To sit down and rap, through the breeze, and have a chat The fact still remains, still later, on the day I have to meet our maker I write my feelings on the paper for now Along with hope course, much played I see you as I drive by I feel you, like your presence is there I stop, and I stare. I see the pictures of days we shared. Well aware that you cared. Making sure I was prepared for life; The hardships, the struggle, the god ships, and the troubles that come with it Always kept my lifted, I gripped it to my heart, everything you taught me My dad, my hero... you have my love for all eternity I try to take it all in after it all settled I couldn't begin accepting you were gone But understood (X5)
