Dark Lotus - My 1st Time Lyrics
[Violent J:]The first time, I didn't even feel guiltyNever washed off, stayed bloody and filthyJust laid there next to the kid all nightKind of soaking it all in, and feeling alrightI wasn't even old enough to drive yet, it was hellI had to put him on my handlebars and dump him down a wellI try to feed of that until I couldn't anymoreBy my sixteenth birthday, my total had grown to four.[Monoxide:]I ain't afraid of you, but be afraid of meCause when the lights go down, there ain't no stopping meMemories of my first real killingThey found her all tied up, just hanging from the ceiling.What I was feeling was just so dark and twistedI couldn't believe I just did this.Now I'm stuck in my very own private HellWill I ever do it again? Time will tell.[Chorus:]My first timeI was in control until the bloodIt was my first timeThe bloody mess I had to clean upIt was my first timeI know this ain't rightIt was my first timeI finally took someone else's life[Shaggy:]Every time I lay my ass down to sleepI pray to ***** these memories seizeBloody face and final breaths takenBut the first, uh, what was I thinking?Just a piece of rope and a pair of handsIt was a man, but she kept talking manSuffocation, through the mouth breathingI chocked her for the very first time for no reason.[Blaze:]It was eleven on my clock, I remember that muchIn the graveyard waiting for the dope man to show upTen minuets pasts, and there's still no signJust then off in the night, I see some headlightsA car rolls by, driving slow and I don't knowI thought it was my folk, I
