Jake Miller - Steven Lyrics
Yeah, lookLet me tell you about a kid named StevenHe's slowly running out of things to believe inEvery couple of months his mom leaves him,for no good reason his step-dad beats himNot too many friends, only ever had a few of them,but recently they don't want anything to do with himAlways eating lunch in the bathroom stall,he just wants to feel normal and be cool again, yeahAlways feeling like the outcast, he's been going crazy ever since his dad passedHe needs guidance and advice but insteadhe only has breakdowns and flashbacks of the car crash uhIt's been getting harder everyday, if he was still around everything would be okCuz his dad was always the light at the end of the tunnel,but now that same damn tunnel is looking dark and greyHe keeps quiet in the back of the classand when the bell rings Steven hurries home fastscared to death the other kids will kick his ass on the long walk homecuz its happened in the past soHe's getting used to the black eyes and fat lipsbut all he's got is a fake smile and cut wristsWishin' he could walk right up to them and show them the scarsand say look you're the reason that I've done thisMaybe they would finally understand and go back to how it was before it all beganBut he's just a little different so they taunt him and they beat himYeah it's all just fun and games, they don't give a damn, yeahHis older brother ain't around, in and out of jail, hanging with the wrong crowdHe's been doing coke, smoking weed, getting drunk all his life he's a shameno, he's not too proudNow his habits are rubbing off on his little bro yeah, but guess what?Little did he know that everytime he did a line,everytime he lit a joint,everytime he took a shot he was sippin modeSo Steven's sitting in his room getting high nowDoors locked, music up, with his lights outHe just takes another tote til his room fills with smoke5-6-7 hours til he knocks outNow he started stealing pills from his mom8-9-10 at a time and now they're goneand maybe for a moment all his problems seem to fade,but the high fades too after not too longand that's when it really sinks in and that's when it hits himthat these god damn drugs won't fix himCurled up on the floor, can't take it anymoreNow he's talking to God cuz he's the only one that gets himOn his knees, looking up, can't stop crying"God I know we haven't talked in a long timebut this time I really need you. Please God help me, say somethingjust give me a sign, because now I'm falling apart andI don't think that I can do it. Please God, give me the strengthto pull through it. Tell me, Should I give up? I could end it all right now.I just don't know if I'm brave enough to do it.Cuz there's gotta be a better way than suicide.Try to wait it out, give it time, you'll be fine.But it's been so long and I still haven't been able to get ridof all the thoughts that I feel inside. So sick, so angry, so madand to top it off no one even knows that"That's when he stood up, wiped his tears, walked over to his deskand got a pen and a notepadHe just couldn't see it getting any betterSo on a cold dark night in December, Steven knew exactly what he had to doBut first he sat down and wrote a couple lettersOne to his step-dad, one to his mother,couple to the kids at school, one to his brotherBringing them the pain that they once brought himtear drops on the paper one after anotherYeah, I hope that you all feel guilty.Cuz I'm broken now and you can't heal meAnd now you're all an accompliss in murdereach and every one of you has chipped in to kill meSo the reason that I'm writing you this evening,is to say goodbye and to tell you that I'm leavingBut don't hold your breath cuz I ain't never coming backSincerely yours, Steven
