Joe Budden - Alive Lyrics
[Intro:]SlParks on the boardReal n****s in the booth, let's goI got Kdot on the keysIt go (it go)Check this, listen[Verse:]I got strangers in my faceBeggin' me to take a pictureStill self-centered, they can give a f**k 'bout how a n***a feelB*****s hang around to hang around even when s**t get realBut I ain't left nothin', maybe I should write a different willThey usin' me I'm usin' them, they don't see the angleTherapeutic, I don't even f**k 'em unless it's painfulWhy do all these b*****s seem to think they can change Joe?Judge me all you want I never claim to be an angelPatriotic, psychotic, obsessive-compulsive, convulsive, neuroticOn narcotics, searchin' for you if you got itSeein' young blacks gettin' killed weekly that's a moot factIf these coppers shoot at me, trust me I'mma shoot backMaybe y'all 'll pray for meBut I don't mean once or even twice, I mean every day for meSo I'm on my knees, there's gotta be a better way for meOpen these windows and these doors but demons stay with meAnd baby that's okay with me[Hook:]I came in with my heart, what made you wanna leave?F**k with my heart and now it's killin' meThis be enough to make a n***a cryI wish 'em well until this runnin' dryThey won't ever take me aliveAll I ever do is surviveAnd I know cause they already triedIt's too late cause I've already diedAt least inside, they'll never take me alive[Verse 2:]Lemme get far as f**k away from these n****sF**k away from these hoesWhere I'm at now its f**k music I don't wanna rapI don't wanna perform or hostAnd my father's sayin' "get it together" and nothin' matters but my healthHope heaven reserved a section for an addict like myselfWatchin' myself on tv see my knees shaking on that showPlus the way shorty's life is now, I bet she's rethinking that "no"She thought she was only sayin' no to marriageBut that "no" is to so much more, now I can't wait to see what her path isI guess being a wife ain't sound as fun as bein' a bad b***hCouldn't deal with my habits, wasn't me though you'd been catfishWe're speakin' a different languageShowin' you the signs in morse codeLast time a n***a loved two b*****s I lost 'em bothSo she scared, try not to get emotionally investedI know God will find a way for those emotions to get testedWhich is cool, maybe not for meFront all you want in your heart somewhereI know there's a spot for meThe sad part is what is vacant now be goneHow I love you but I hate youAnd all you're doing is being the person that I made youFrom hateful to gracefulFrom rageful to gratefulThen God came and snatched that space for youI tried to save it booEverything I caught myself building to that point was made for twoWriting out the script, wish you'd a told me the page was fullBut f**k it, He knows better than IRegret'll subside, let's sever the tiesAfter all it's just one less goodbye[Hook:][Verse 3:]Lemme get far as f**k away from these b*****sF**k away from these hoesLemme get far as f**k away from my n****sLemme get real close to my foesThey tellin' me that I gotta act famous now, etceteraI been regular, so I feel like an a*** nowSee all of this time I've just been treatin' y'all accordinglyOn an even plane like no one is any less or more than meBut the Lord agrees he said, "keep playin' with fire, if you're Joseph you'll get burned"I hate second guessing I'll wait 'til the motives get confirmed(..)Call from the shorty, we off that b***h, option timeModels, sport someAll these cities, I got to tour oneAll these bottles, I got to pour oneAll these hoes, I got to call oneOur situation is a tall one, what you gonna do, pour or run?So I'm spending forty thousand dollars on a time-pieceHelp my self esteem and get this s**t up off my mind pleaseAnybody lookin' for me, y'all know where to find meI be right up Steinway n***a I ain't playing hide and seekLet that liquor induce ya, then watch how fast it go from a couple n****s on the hookahTo some triggers, to them shooters, everything that's going on is kinda sicker than I'm used toI'm just wrestling with them snakes, you ever kick it with Medusa?Let me get the f**k away from these pillsThe f**k away from this drinkin'Let me get the f**k away outta my wayLet me get far as f**k away from my thinkin''Till it's better, it's whatever, s**t I'm unapologeticSince all I got is my word n***a tell 'em that I said itIt's Joe[Hook:]Uhh, uhh, uhhIt go[Hook:]
