Joe Budden - All In My Head Lyrics
[Featuring: Royce Da 5'9 & Kobe][Intro]Quarter on the looseLoose quarterFew questions I ask myself[Verse 1]Maybe it started with Slaughterhouse, or was it tour life?Maybe it wouldn’t had started at all if I had your lifeMaybe it was needed or I was thinking immorallyIf I wasn’t myself could I say I gave the fans All of Me?Can’t decide if I’m more ashamed of what this all meanThan I am of ignoring all the lessons that was taught to meHeaded up field but couldn’t dodge the last tacklerHigh to the floor we thinkin moves her ass backwardsHow could I do with no regrets at all, willing to bet it allNot realize that quicker demise, how could I neglect it all?I’m so seasonal, some of you knew what to bring backWith a heart this cold, how’d ya’ll think I’d be receptive to fallI’m plenty comfortable when danger’s aroundAnd even more so when strangers aroundIn a bigger picture, was sicker down on my triggersAnd all the alarm enforcersDown to a nigga, that I’m about for drugs and liquor or the harm it causesLife and death, I tried to lynch myselfThought I could keep it all a secret, I convinced myselfBut really the folk that loved me, they could tell I was loakinI couldn’t see him, cry me a river cuz it fell in the oceanNumb to my words now, maybe felt it was openI cut so many people who was through, I need help with devotionThat’s just some of the things I ask my Lord the saviorAnd when He calls to me, well He have done us all a favor[Hook]How did I make it here?Who I are?I feel so lostNow I’m not seeing it clearIs it my fault?Is it my fault?It’s all in my head[Verse 2]I’m looking around like this can’t be happeningRound of applause for the angry rappersLord my girl cried me a flood then me a riverThat’s love depending on me when I’m a dependent on liquorI’m up in the shoe store, she got no love to showYou ever look at a ***** she was *****ing behind your ***** back like ***** I was *****in you for, come onI’m an artist so I’m intelligentI would tell you to do some soul searchinBut it’s hangin up in my closet with your skeletonThat’s gotta be a god's work, even a diamond gotta be polished firstThe quarter is on the loose and I ain’t been out here getting my dollars’ worthI had to remove the goggles firstTo see through the sippin patrone and 50 phonies foolI need to go get me a kidney donerGuru, Nate Dogg, go head blink your eyeYour doctor told me you close, go ahead drink and dieBuried under the stone where the patrone 5th sits byThat reads hella somebody who never wanted to be this guy[Hook][Verse 3]They say knowledge is power, great cuz every day I learnAs of late been having revelations bout this hate turnHate the way they judge me, 2 I got the case adjournedHated the belly of the beast to I became its tapewormWhen I said I’d stop getting high tried to say it’s doneNo, I’m the type to walk through the fire to check the way it burnThey say my brain is off, I say how can it be?If I’m out my mind how can I be in sanity?The people used to say that I was scared of progressThey don’t know how hard a nigga tried to advanceBut I don’t know who’s more to blameIs it them for really not knowing meOr is it me for never really giving them a chance?Get too close, be too big of a threatNow it’s been little than no timeThinking why I ain’t get rid of you yetGotta recognize my maturityGotta see I’m grownLetting my skeletons out the closet just so I never be aloneSince I got trust issues I won’t discuss with youBesides God tell me who the *****’s supposed to save youPop one, have one man to man, what’s going after the light’s out?Somewhere in his head probly feel it in his place tooPlus more people will see me soonI mean I’ll be on national TV soonSo when I ask if people I have around are cancer for meThat’s 4 million more that might be able to answer for meJoe[Hook]
