Joe Budden - Different Love Lyrics
[Verse:]It go - off of my sabbaticalTook a few years cause Slaughter is what I had to doWhich only brings me to now and I ought to be a radicalI say that cause my autobiographical is more so just a graph of youI ain't mad, you did more than what I asked of youAs for me, I did less than what I could'veSo though we were a hit I had to cancel that showAnd now my standing solo, I'll be amped when she not a hoBut what you doing right now is real commendableTake strength to doCause between us there's some deep root stareI gave you the best d**k you ever got in your lifeAnd stupid me thought it would be enough to keep you thereI thought you loved footballI was running through the hole with the stiff onBut got disarmed, guess it was just harmI ain't need to f**k, I was looking for a peerThey say once you stop looking what you looking for appearsYou were stronger than I pictured you, much stronger than meAnd almost just as strong as JohnAnd John, oh, that's just a friend of my momsWith tubes coming out his nose, but s**t I never knew whyBut he was born with his heart in the right side of his chestNo, for real, his heart is in the right side of his chestDoctors confused, they must do what they can doBut impute and say it ain't on the right side of his chestScared he might die in his sleep, deepEvery time he coughs wonders if it's a cough or a symptomUs will get better laterHe gon' live his whole life waking up every morning to a respiratorSo I don't never say what I can't doIf he can be happy with life than n***a I can tooWhile Jose wanna dieAin't tell nobody, but eyeing his eyes feel I should probably identifyI said everyday he lives with pain and want to end itSomething's wired wrong in your brain, you gotta mend itHad a bad breakup and let it expose dudeBut if she was getting you high then she would get you low tooSo who's there to wait on me?Y'all just get it off y'all and put the weight on meN***a look me in my eyes, it was amazing to meAnd said she don't understand you not as crazy as meYou got gone, n***a, I'm the most mentally flawed n***aYou not even built to withstand what all I've endured, n***aYou know s**t about the thoughts in my headOr the strength I need daily just to get out of bedJust to open my eyes, n***a, open your eyesThe words spoken of wise, you just know it in disguiseWe can end this right here, I got nothing more to say to youYou ain't never met another f*****g n***a crazierBlank stare, couldn't believe 'emCat chastised me cause I got help when you need someI can give less than a f**k and not a damnI never be apologetic over who I amI'm the same me, nothing changes when the riches doBut n****s wanna suck you dry just like the b*****s doThey enter your mentions, sucks to be the center of attentionWhen you can't even center your attentionYeah, so I'm f*****g out of frustrationThey love every second and accuse me of persuasionJam was a cancer to me, I had to rid itRed got in her feelings fast, but won't admit itDawn I was bored then, never really smithenV got threatened by the thought of competitionMalo wanna f**k all day, don't know howShe why I got a Viagra in my wallet right nowStep kept it simple, loved me for my mentalB got a n***a, but she used me as her rentalAnd you, you just give me resistanceSay you needed comfort zone, for you it's distanceI tell 'em all I'm not available emotionallyThey start giving me advice like they coaching meI don't even ask itIt's something about bipolar sociopath s**tThey just find it attractiveYeah, anti-social, but I mingle nowBut I've been arguing much more since I've been single, how?Tell me is this a relationship or just a *****ship?Whatever situation it is it's all f**k shiftI'll admit it, I might love her a bit differentlyAs for them they'll all love to see a different meSome cried to me, some are begging for itSomeone'll see that change, but not be present for itYou just act so frightenedIgnoring all logic now, she won't buy inEven in your absence my feelings are heightenedThough I know some love's lost, it's not on my endIt's not mine, it's not mine at all
