Joe Budden - Only Human Lyrics
[Intro: Child's voice]Mic check, mic checkOne two, one twoNew Joe Budden![Bridge: Joe Budden]UhhPlease somebody help my soul (x4)Talk to 'em (talk to 'em)[Verse 1: Joe Budden]I let the man have a talk with the beast in meI'm holdin' onto my last bit of decencyI need a vacay, a change of sceneryBut mama said wherever I'mma go, I'm taking me with meI told her s**t is on my mind and it's been eatin' meShe got me pissin' in a cup, she don't believe in meIt's not the drugs that got me out of my zoneGoin' days without eatin', in a crowd I feel alone, mamaThen she ask why it seems I never sleep at nightI told her when I close my eyes my brain just keeps the fightShe say my friends wanna have an intervention with meI speak to n****s daily that was never mentioned to meShe told me there's a higher power and a lower powerAnd that I'll die if I don't find the strength to overpowerThen I replied, "well aren't we all"?She said "yeah, but that should be on God's terms, not yours"[Hook: Emmany]My every thought is scaryAnd it makes it hard to breathe againLike I'm blinded while I'm starin' in the mirrorAskin' God to help me see again, please help meBut He tells me I'm only humanAnd that I'll be on my feet again, please help meBut they act like I'm more than humanI prove that I'm wrong againDon't fault me I'm only human[Verse 2: Joe Budden]Tryin' to weather the stormI thought that black cloud was goneIt's been beside me all along, not the songI wanna sit in silence, don't speak for a minuteTired of being strong, please let me be weak for a minuteKinda thought that my disease tried to kill your man firstIt was easy to get my hands on 30 milligram Percs, worseCan't be depression, couldn't have it this longSo many secrets I only told through a glass of Patron, my n***aSpeakin' of secrets, that's when I got the KaylintextRead it and cried, couldn't believe what she was sayin' nextShe said "you're goin' through a lotI'm hopin' you ain't in the grave and deadCause not too many people know your brains a mess"Who knew that she was keepin' track of it all?I wrote back "lol" but wasn't laughin' at allI ain't tell her just the other day that that gun was in my lapPen and pad as in my hand, and I was writin' a noteDidn't get far, as soon as I wrote down "mom" I just stoppedCouldn't lie to her, couldn't figure out how to say bye to herCouldn't explain the "why" to herCouldn't picture her gettin' a call or somebody sayin' her son had died to herAnd shortly after that my pastor calledWhich at first I kinda thought it was weirdBut that convo preserved me, 'bout God's grace and mercyHe ain't even say goodbye, he said "let us pray"And then he went into a prayer, gripped the phone, closed my eyesJust so happy he appeared n***a shed another tearMaybe he could sense that somethin' had [?]Just thankful he shed some light upon my darkest hourAll my thoughts are corrupt, this s**t is whackIf everybody calls you a duck, will you just quack?Guess a part of me really gives a f**k, way in the backWhen I had that burner ready to bust, I didn't clapJoe[Hook:][Verse 3:]Guess I'm insanity's definitionTryin' to step over in sanity's repetitionBut I can't it got me trippin'Whatever love we had was dead that nightLookin' back, we both needed cooler heads that nightWas goin' off no sleep, eyes red that nightWhile you was drunk textin' me, I hope I read that rightYou was beefin' 'bout Giselle, beefin' bout AlexaSuddenly you was jealous, musta thought that I had sexed herI was laughin', thought it was funnyGiselle's my homie, Alexa's twentyWith hip withdrawalsNothin' 'bout your story shoulda been stickin' at allI wouldn't bicker at allI'm guessin' you were insecure and never knew meWas there for four months, yet you said this was a new meIn your head, guess the answer to this jealousyWas to turn around and try to make me jealous, BBut the part that you neglectWas never mind jealousy, this was 'bout respectY'all Instagrammin' pictures, tryin' to get me upsetYou turned it into a night we both would never forgetWe both said some things we both probably regretYou was lyin' to my face and them dots didn't connect, but coolOnly picked you up to try and talk sense into youNow I'm fu***n' homeboy up, just off the principleI guess he caught him self antagonizin' meBut he's a young n***a, that's no surprisin' meS**t I done f****d some of the baddest hoesI left shorty weeks ago, you can have this hoI guess the part where I loseIs now they got my face plastered all over the news, I'm being falsely accusedAnd I don't understand, was this all part of a plan?I guess I'll tell the whole truth when on the standHow you go and tell the cops I had guns in my house?Now they got a search warrant, just to come to my houseQuestion: were your feelings worth takin' my tomorrow's, kid?And you know Jersey gun laws, I'm talkin' hollow tipsSo you can tell them n****s you roll with whatever you wantBut you and I know what's goin' onN***a that whole night just replays in my mindYour face is fine, this is a big waste of timeLet's get back to that jealousyNow you got a n***a facin' three feloniesAll for what, cause we were no longer dealin'You attack me, but I'm the villain, over a fu***n' iPhone and feelingsCheck, you never see me act like a jerkI know women would provoke you and get mad when it worksRather reserved and that always makes matters the worstAs I go on about my business and not act like it hurts, but waitSo now the whole world is watchin' me get burned hereWhich is fine, there's a lesson to be learned hereWhich is only f**k with strippers and the bartendersAnytime there's a pole in the bar centeredSo even though it's from afar nowI still wish you the best, I know your heart's tenderI'm sorry all, I just got my own scars to tend toSignin' off, truly yours, with love, God's son[Hook:] (x2)
