Machine Head - Trephination Lyrics
I used to want to take aDrill to my headLet the pain out of the holeI used to want to cut theVeins in my neckCool the blood boiling mySoulWhen I wondered, why myDaily headaches thunderedTried to buffer, pushingDown the pain I sufferedMutilated, feeling soHumiliatedCannot wash the dirt offUnderneath my skinThere was a part of me leftFar behindWhen at the age of fiveYears oldI had my innocence takenFrom meEmptiness would fill theHoleNow a second grader,Thinking why I dont feelBetterWhy Im filthy, why the hellI feel so guiltyWhen drawing stick menOf pornographic men andWomenThinking all the timeTheres something wrongWith meEveryday for three yearsFrom dawn til dusk aMigraineWould take me and break meAnd itd cripple me soMuch thatIn dreams, itd seem, withA hole in my templeThat I could probably makeMy headaches finally goAwayTrephinationTrephinationThe enemy inside of meWont let me freeWants me to bleedAnd after three years nowMy headaches wear offFor reasons not quite toMe knownThe acupuncture needlesSticking my skinPushed them down as farAs theyd goBut now Im older and nowInside my anger smoldersFrom depression, to fightingTaking out my vengeanceConsequences, now idQuestion during sex if ...Is this how it *****ing feelsOr am I faking it ?No longer the child thatYou left there at the bartTracksIm now at 17, left in anEmpty blacknessOn drugs, with thugs, andThinking goddamn ?Im ending up in a failure,In the gutter passed outTrephinationTrephinationThis enemy inside of meWont let me freeWants me to bleedNow Im older and in thisMan an anger smoldersNow Im thinking a hole inYou is what Im seeingYour depression, is theDent I kick in you inVengeanceConsequences are the painId give to youI know that Im dreaming,But in this dream I go inGo through it, and end itAnd though Id never do itIm killing you, hand onThe trigger - pull itYour final thoughtll be aBullet in your *****in headTrephinationTrephinationThis enemy inside of meIm now killingTo make me free.
