Scarface - Now I Feel Ya Lyrics
...its a new day... ya know what Im sayin?A new day, brings a new problem to a brotherAnd all I gots ta say is thank God for my motherCause without my mommy dear my life wouldve been jokeEither locked up playin dead and still slangin dope but nopeThe lord he had a plan for meAnd with his help, my mother made a man of meDidnt blindfold me to the world we was livin inTaught me how to save my little dividendsSo when I graduated Id have a little school moneyBut in the sixth grade I wanted to be the school dummyAnd flunked outta school with the flag poleAnd left my mother dear at home with a sad soulBecause my mother worked the fingers to the boneCause we was alone, and me I bought a death homeMy real pops he broke out with the styleSo I respect my stepdad, for raisin another niggas childSo now we livin comftableTaught me the game and how to be responsibleBut back then I couldnt see itI wanted to be a grown man at fourteen so the kids leavinAnd ended up in a big fightAnd told me not to come home until I got my shit rightSo now Im livin in my grandmas homeMy grandmas strong, shes got nine kids of her ownAnd keepin me aint no big dealBut now that Im much older I see just how the shit feelsBeing kind-hearted, not wantin to tell me noEven though my grandfather just had a strokeAnd now the moneys lowAnd pretty soon a brothers gonna have ta goOr either try to find a job so I can help outIm in the ghetto, I gots ta get myself outAnd when I get out I gotta try to pave the waySo my family can have a better place to stayIm losin all hope, a brothers fallin shortI cant cope, so now Im slangin dopeAnd now my granny knows Im doin wrongShe just prayin for me heavilyTake care of her grandsonAnd the lord must of heard her prayerCause he made me get a gripAnd got me on up outta thereI heard my mother say them streets is gonna kill yaYou couldnt have told me nothin back thenBut now I feel ya...Im eighteen, and now Im havin big funMy babys mother just had my first sonMay eleven, I never will forget the dayA stars born, lets name him little scarfaceMy first born and yo Im a proud fatherI gotta son, I gots ta be my sons fatherAnd sellin dope aint the way that I can get aheadBut what the hell, I gots ta keep my baby fedI buy him milk, and pampers tryin ta do my partAnd hes my son, I gots ta try to make him hardI buy him clothes, and jewellry not the tonka toysBecause the tonka toys will only punk my boyAnd I dont want my son to look at lifeThrough a replica of reality tryin to make it life-likeBut yet and still I let my son be a kidJust give him up the real, exactly like my momma didSo when he gets to be a man hell appreciateThe game I gave him way back when he used to roller skateAnd now my son is four years oldI really gots ta give the real and try to play the fathers roleBecause these years hell remember mostSo its all about little marcus and me becomin closeBut I got a buncha obstaclesIf it aint my line of work its the girlies on my popsicleNow everybodys got my babyWantin to have their hands in my pocket tryin to drive me crazyIts your daughter, dont she look like you?I just cant tell, why dont you take it to ma momma doBecause my mother knows the real dealAll these hoochies poppin coochie tryin to get a free mealSo now we in and outta copeTryin to get mo money, braggin om the child supportTellin her friends that shes breakin meNow eveybody knows, that she was just fakin gCome to find out, the girl never had meShes the babys mother but me I aint the babys daddyAnd biological tests can proveYou gotta get up off of me and go after the other dudeBut now I finally got a real daughterNo need for the testinI know that Im the babys fatherI heard my daddy say them hoes will try ta kill yaYou couldnt have told me nothin back thenBut now I feel ya...I feel ya...Now Im twenty-two and finally got a grip on lifeIts nineteen ninety-three, I put away my pocket knifeAnd got a bigger stick to fight withIm young and black so my choice aint a nightstickBecause we livin in a concentration setAnd everyday, we face to face with deathI seen my homies go and comeAnd judgement day is just somethin we cant run fromSo I know my numbers comin upSo I gotta protect myself from suckers who be runnin upAnd even though I hate killin off my own kindI gotta be a man and as a man Im a defend mineMy brother corners tryin to keep the neighbourhood at peaceDont fight each other, we gots ta stand and fight the beastSo united we stand but we gonna fall quickBecause we always tryin to take another brothers shitAnd the cops is in the same voteJust because we comin up quick they think we slang dopeThey shootin ta kill, they gas aint sparkin goodsThey shot my long time partner rudy in cold bloodAnd now the storys all twisted upAnd if they gave the cop the chairI really wouldnt give a *****Because she left my partners family with memoriesAnd after hearin this I know you dont remember meBut yet in still I find it hard for me to stay in touchI see his parents and then I started breakin upBecause I know what you did was wrongBut you wont realize until you dead and goneIt aint no justifiable homicide, you never gave a warningYou straight up shot him from behindBut all the cryin in the world aint gonna bring him backYou give a gat to a black he dont know how to actBut you gotta tell your story to the judgeNot the imitation judge, the judge that everybody lovesAnd if the man upstairs grants you forgivenessThen in reality you took care of your businessBut regardless I know you wanna kill meBut I aint goin out like datYa feel me?...yeah
