The Jokerr - Dead Horse Lyrics
[Verse 1]Yo, I first met Hop back in two thousand and nine (2009)I reached out when my homie Lo Key found him onlineHe blew my mind with his rhymes, he sounded sublimeHe showed me I wasn't the only one down for the grindWe kept in touch and grew closer as the time went onTill we became best friends and the bind was strongSittin' up and just straight talkin' like from nine to dawnOur mutual struggle to be heard defined our bondHe was the only one who understood what it was likeThe struggle and strife to make a name jugglin' lifeTrying to become something bigger than some regular guysLike eagles with our wings pinned trying to spread 'em and flyWe kept our friendship secret as a joke and a plotThat we'd reveal it in his new video that I shotBut when the video dropped, and I saw he cut all my partsIt felt like I had a damn dagger stuck in my heart[Hook]But it's a dead horse now, can we all just move onBut it's a dead horse now, it's really been too longBut it's a dead horse now, I'm thinking that it's time that we all just leave it aloneI'm telling youBut it's a dead horse now, and it's already been saidBut it's a dead horse now, it's gone and it's been deadBut it's a dead horse now, feeling like it's time that we all just leave it alone[Verse 2]Now Strange Music fans, listen, I have to obligeTech N9ne is straight one of the dopest rappers aliveI won't lie, some of them crazy delivery patterns are flyAnd on a personal level he ain't that bad of a guyI was a big fan of him right out of the gateI first heard Tech spit in two thousand and eight (2008)Flippin' through MySpace I came across Night and Day from EverreadyPlayed it and was like "Wow, that was great!"He had the rhymes, had the speed, had the harmony downAnd Rob Rebeck on the mix, with the barbarous soundHis stage show was straight nuts, no matter the spotSo as a rapper you could imagine how happy I gotWhen I got invited to meet him in Santa Barbara that dayAnd then drove like eight hundred miles at eighty dollars a tankAnd spent my whole check to show Tech a couple of songsBut got kicked off of the bus cause the game was on[Hook][Verse 3]So that's the gist of what happened with Funk Volume and StrangeBut looking back my perspective wasn't all that pertainedI've done a lot of growing up in the past two yearsSo as a man here's a couple things I ask you hearAll I ever really wanted was the love of a friendWho could relate to my struggle, and thus was akinAlong with the validation from professional peersTo whom I looked up to justify the stress and my tearsSo when I felt Hop betrayed me, it cut me deepAnd getting kicked off of the bus hurt enough to weepSo when my situation got bleak, I hatched me a ployTo throw a fit and lash out like a sad little boyIt wasn't Tech's fault his manager treated me badBut I dissed him for the buzz that I seen that he hadAnd in the process I flipped off a legend of rapAnd made a horrible impression I could never get backNow with my homie, Hop, it was even deeper than thatThe bond we shared, I should've worked to keep it intactBut instead, I let my anger overcome me and snappedAnd ripped a gash in between us too rugged to patchBut it wasn't just that, I trashed every one of his actsAnd hit SwizZz with elaborate redundant attacksAnd used my whole platform as a big bullhornThat turned a once-pure friendship ugly and blackAnd even though I might have felt validated insideI wasn't gracious, I reacted out of anger and prideAnd at the same time stigmatized my nameAnd defamed the notoriety I tried to gainAnd tried to blame other people for a course of eventsI could've stopped from even happening before it commencedAnd ever since, have lost fans, lost respectLost any chance to ever do a song with TechLost a best friend, pissed off loads of his fansLost potential opportunities to grow and advanceAnd I was speaking on God, while diggin' a graveIn a vast misappropriation of the gifts that he gaveI was blind with the justice and redemption I cravedBut I never stopped to think about the picture displayedI made myself look small as an infant and pavedA trail of my own destruction with the bricks that I laidSo listen, to Dame, Hop, Tech, SwizZz and the gangHoppa, Benton, Krizz Kaliko and Dizzy the sameI'm ashamed of all the dirt that I kicked on your namesI was hurt and lashed out, and you were fit for the blameSo I apologize. Simple and plainThere's no excuse for it I was sinful and vainI acted out my bitter anger as a vent for the painAnd ignored the same message I was sent to proclaimAnd to the fans, listen, all that I askIs if you're in the same position don't follow my pathAny punk can start swinging when the gauntlet is castBut it takes a real man to sit back and swallow the wrathAnd even if you don't deserve it, just take it and chillCause people hurt you as a symptom of the pain that they feelAnd probably from somebody hurting them the way they did youThen the cycle will continue till the hatred is throughSo if you got somebody out there and you know who they areYou really cared about, who left you heartbroken and scarredIt might be time to swallow that pride and punch in a callAnd put an end to that sick cycle once and for allAnd even if it feels like it's beyond repairFixing your half's the only thing you're called to bearBut unless you try, you'll never know, and who could be mad?One day you two could look back like "Yeah, it used to be bad but..."[Hook][Outro]Regardless of what happens, we should always take that first step to make it right.Holding on to anger and hatred is cancerous, and understanding and forgiveness is the only cure
