Kimya Dawson - The Competition Lyrics
I never wanted to be better than my friendsI just wanted to prove wrong the people in my headThe ones who told me I'd be better of deadThe ones who told me that I would never winWhen I delivered newspapers they said I was too slowWhen I was a barista they said I made lousy foamWhen I worked in retail they said I was a slobMuch too dumb for school and much too lazy for a jobSo I rode my bike like lightningAnd I made cappuccinos that would make the angels singTook two showers a day and I dressed up like a princessShook my fist in my own face and said I'll show you who's the bestI wrote the kinds of papers teachers hang up on their wallsI was employee of the month at seven different shopping mallsAnd one time playing football I pulled the tendons in my legTo prove that I was tough I hopped on one footAnd finished up the gameI thought if I succeeded I'd be happy and they'd go awayBut first thing in the morning I'd still wake up and I'd hear them say"you're fat, ugly, and stupid, you should really be ashamedNo one will ever like you you're not good at anything"And sometimes I'd rise to the challengeBut other times I'd feel so bad that I could not get out of bedAnd on the days I stayed in bed I sang and sang and sangAbout how crappy I felt no realizing how many other people would relateNow people send me emails that say thanks for saying the things they didn't know how to sayAnd the people in my head still visit me sometimesAnd they bring all of their friends but I don't mindI play my guitar like lightningWhen I sing I like it when you sing too loud and clearDifferent voices different tones all sayin' "yeah, we're not alone"I got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still hereI got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still hereI got good at feeling bad and that's why I'm still here
