My Fictions - Same Grave Lyrics
I don't know what to blame for why I shy away so muchBut I'm taking steps forward towards facing all of my faultsTake my ego hostage; sign the ransom note as the holy ghostAnd bring my agnostic eyes to the pit of my chest,The sightline of my stomach because I can't digest a single thing about this placeAnd when I die I won't know anything and it won't mean a *****ing thingIt's going to come down soon, I've been running scared I don't feel preparedOh my sweet serene, don't I love how you've been watching me?I take the good with the bad, I guess, at least someone's watching,I validate my existence through self loathingAnd when I look at my life, it's a procession through fluorescent lightsA synthetic sun I keep shying myself away fromAnd when I think of all the people I've wronged I just want to be left aloneBut I'm forever stuck here to reflectYou know I hate how I get but this distance is developingAnd I can't lie in the same grave for a week at a time in my ever-changing mindThis destiny draws into a black hole and I'm circling the drain as I wait for the endNow I know why I'm afraid to die, I'm just so sick of crossing linesAnd I feel as if I *****ing hate myselfAs if I can't relate to anyone outside my selfTo anything at all, so sick of building wallsLike I scared my self out of itBecause whenever I leave the house I just want to go back insideAnd I guess that's why I can't believe the myth that we are always moving forward
