Sadistik - November Lyrics
Ill break another heart too fragile to holdLove dies, Im standing alone,painting false hopes is a habit Ive grownCome find, why I said I dont love youand instead I was humbled and content with the struggleThat you gave me, and said that I was crazyWords became chains and love became safetyI saw trust until I lost the view...And then I lost faith in us like I always doI refused, to complement your weaknessThrough all our ups and downs til I was sea-sick...Flashbacks I remember so well, we both heldIn November, when the snow fellBut that changed, you were not a friend to meI distorted and soon I lost identityAnd when we fought and I tried to break the innocenceYou said lies, and I became a hypocriteYou tried to hold the sadness when you grabbed tight(But I moved on from the shadows of our past life)You said you couldn't live if I ran awayBut part of me died, anyway, when I had to stayIn a storm that I saw in groundviewAnd I couldn't find the I (eye), it was all about U (you)Year One! I felt the dear sunA brand new hope before the tears comeYear two! I see In clear viewAshamed of myself when I am near youYear three! I watch the stars fadeIm a zombie whos walking through a heartacheYear four! Youre forever away and the sun now shines as my memories fadeAll the feelings I have are hard to wordI cant see the problem, my vision starts to blurInto an image of a violent struggleOf a slow suicide since the time I loved youId, gladly die if youd pacifyBut you need too many things that I cant provide, soYou looked for it inside another's armsLied through ya teeth and cried that nothings wrong(It didn't stop) all the cryin in publicOr telling me Im not the only guy you were *****in!But I gave in to all my fears insteadThe only thing that ran more than me (were the tears you shed)When you told me you cut inside ya fleshYoure depressed and youd rather die insteadI could feel my heart tear to bits(The first time Ive cried ever since my parents split)And I knew, there was no you and II kissed you goodbye, it felt like suicideOb a bond that was made to severWhen I turned my back on you and wouldn't face the weatherAnd for a moment, it felt like nothing matteredTheres givers and theres takers, and youre just the latterI needed help but I got a struggleWhen I fell to pieces you couldn't solve the puzzle(We wept in puddles) til we were lost at sea(With regretful struggles) and a faded promise ringYour hands were full cuz you seemed to hold grudgesWhile I chased both of our dreams through rosebushes, in NovemberYear One! I felt the dear sunA brand new hope before the tears comeYear two! I see In clear viewAshamed of myself when I am near youYear three! I watch the stars fadeIm a zombie whos walking through a heartacheYear four! Youre forever away and the sun now shines as my memories fadeI couldn't think to hold a single hopeSo I pressed on my luck until my fingers brokeIm treading steps through quicksand of past loveTo find closure from ice shoulders and hands touchAnd my mind is still plagued with the fragrancesOf pain and bliss, and razorblades you made me gripWhen Id watch ya face with teary eyesAnd I had to cut myself so I could feel alive, butI found a place where the weather is much better nowIn greener pastures, where the rain is never outAnd ya face is replaced by anotherNovember's leaves stay, but have changed for the summer(and my) hope meddles (where I) go settleIn the line that blurs from love to rose petalsAnd the silence hurt, so I just followed throughOn a beaten street, never reaching peaks which I saw in youAnd now I see that you just took me for grantedHad a diamond in the rough and you still took me for graniteCuz in November we gazed at sea scapesWith each wave, symbolizing things that wed makeLove and war we were born as keepsakesTo underscore loves accord when peace breaks, In November
