Akeldama - Shadow of an Entity Lyrics
PainIs at the forefront of my mindFor but a simple moment's timeAlthough it seems to last foreverIt will fade away with the wash of madness that fast approachesMy only fear is this:Without the painWhat willI become?What will I become?This instance of pain is my one and only memoryWhat brought me here to this moment in my history?I know something happenedIt's something immenseStrong enough to erase the pages of my life's storyWhen did I make the choices the led me here?Where did I take the wrong turn?Everything is wrongI can feel itI have become a miserable wretchI'm left in a spiral of contemptI hate what I've becomeSo I reach out to others, compelled to find compassionOnly receiving just a passing glance in judgementThis world around me; a mirror of my wretchednessYet there's one struggling glimmer of a thoughtFrom within the deepest blacknessIt claws at the edges of my sanityRefusing to be sucked into oblivionWithin this vacuum in my mindThis tiny thought spins a tale of hope; a seed of possibilityI know it must be false but I can't relinquish itIt's giving me a sense that there's a purpose to this madnessIt tells me:"There is someone out there waiting for you to change everything"An unrelenting notion that I must fight through this seemingly hopeless reality"But is it just the needles and the glass,A catalyst for full blown insanity?Is this world a perpetual winter night,Or will the sun one day rise on a precious summer solstice?This hope is a plague on meOne last strand to hold ontoIn the center of my beingI just want to let go of this thingRelease me from this realityUnbind meThe fabric of my sanity isUnwindingFragments of a prior existenceFloat freely in the limbo of my consciousnessNot a single one contains substanceJust a ripple on the surface of a memoryEverything has been shattered to piecesSeparated by a void that I cannot comprehendThis purgatory is a fate worse than deathI exist as the shadow of an entityThe void has come to coalesceRuling over everything I amThat which is missing has left such an emptinessThat my existence has been rendered purely meaningless
